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March 13, 2021


You are saying very clearly what so many are thinking and saying across the world. Exhaustion is the common factor, as is sadness, but hopefully also a determination to learn from this awful year. I really don't want to pick up too many threads of my former life. I want to increase my appreciation of small things, to value every possible interaction with others, to be grateful for everything possible and impossible. I didn't expect to be here still - and it would be wonderful to meet a new grandson for the first time now that he's a year old.
Hang on, Beth, and be sure you are not alone in your feelings.

The anniversary provided a way to acknowledge the loss of so many, and at the same time emphasized our family's dismay that we have not been able gather to remember two beloved members who have died in the last year (not from Covid). None of us wants to attend an event on Zoom; we are hoping for the summer, outdoors. (Zoom fatigue?) I remind myself not to 'loosen up' too much now that I have had the first shot, but it is a great relief.

Judith, I'm delighted to hear from you. I knew you were all right, but it's good to hear your "voice" directly, and to know that we're thinking along the same lines (not a surprise!) I hope you get to see your new grandson soon. And I agree with you that I don't want to "pick up the threads of my life" in the same way and almost wish I hadn't written those words; like an unexpected diagnosis and illness, or a war, or any other major disruption in our lives, the pandemic has given us an opportunity to assess our lives and ourselves, and make some choices. I'm not terribly optimistic about the whole world doing that, though I hope we will change in some significant ways -- because we must. But it's clear to me that I've changed, and my life going forward will be different. Wishing you all the best, and thank you for this message.

Duchesse, my heart goes out to all who have lost family members and been unable to grieve together or observe the rituals for honoring and celebrating that life. And not just that: the pain of not being able to be with the loved one at the time of their death will also stay forever with so many people. I hope you and your family can get together soon, and yet agree that we still have to be cautious for a while, even while we're relieved at the progress of the vaccinations.

Your words capture so much of how I'm feeling. Thank you for your expressions through words and painting.

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